I want to be honest with you all, so I'll just lay it out here.
I'm having a really hard time with October - and that's why I haven't been around.
I don't think you want to hear about my melancholy, my wanting October to both speed up and get the fuck over, and to slow down, because I do not want 10/23 to come.
I can not believe it has been nearly a year since my Dad passed away.
I don't want to write about it or him, not yet.
So, I just do not write at all.
It's not that I don't have other things to say - I do, sometimes - it's just that I don't really feel like it.
Things are just, you know, fine. Like FINE in a fucked up insecure neurotic and emotional kind of fine.
Work - fine
Dating life - meh, fine
Family - fine
Other work - fine
See - you don't even want me to write right now.
So, unless something super magical or inspiring, or God forbid really awful happens, I'm taking October off.
I'm sorry, I never wanted to be this kind of blogger, but that's how it is right now.