Tuesday, November 13, 2012

To all of you

Even I thought I'd have written something sooner than now.

I am shocked and embarrassed to see how many days into November it is, and not a word from me.

Ideas have come and gone and been developed and discarded.

I'm afraid for this blogging thing. 

I'm afraid that I can't keep it up, and for no good solid reasons.

I'm afraid that my "community" is also flailing a little too.

I never realized before how much I actually (real life) like you people, until now - until I think that I'm losing you. Most of you. Some of you.

I've come to miss the actual emails and phone calls and texts and visits and developing friendships that used to happen.

I miss the catty chats on teh FB that I would have with some of you ladies, usually riling me up to start something with other ladies we don't like very much.

I hadn't really appreciated what I had here, until my Dad passed away.  That day, the third person I called (of all of the many many people in my life) was one of you.  And through her, this community rallied around me and showed me so much love and compassion and kindness - so much more than I probably even deserved. 

Up to that day, I thought I was a small time jester in a very large, much smarter court.

So today - no snark, no bitchiness, none of that -

I miss you - all of you.  I hold on to my friends as tightly as I can, because I feel if someone is in my life, they are valuable to me and I need to hang on to them, because they add to my value.  I feel I am losing this community, and I really don't want that.

So help me hold on somehow.

9 comments:

ifthethunderdontgetya™³²®© said...

Blogging is more than a jerb, Von.

I'm not sure it's an adventure, though.
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zombie rotten mcdonald said...

Meh.

The way I blog, it's more of a vendetta.

Whatev. It's not like nobody knows where I am. I haven't even started a new blog in over a year.

I mean, as far as any of YOU know.

Michael said...

I can understand your frustration. I went for like, three whole days of not writing and it made me nuts. ;)

mikey said...

If I was going to make a suggestion (me? That's crazy talk) I'd suggest you make your blog about more than just what's going on in your life. There are things in the world that interest you, fascinate you, make you happy or angry. Explore them - draw people into participating in conversations you want to have. The Zombie likes to talk about music. Thunder likes photography and hates Obama. The Kiwis...well, they're just nuts, but in a good way. The Bastard loves obscure music and literature - I've literally NEVER heard of a single author or band he's mentioned. Me - well, you know me. They say you never talk about religion and politics in polite company. I'm just not very good at following the rules...

ifthethunderdontgetya™³²®© said...

I don't hate Obama, mikey.

I hate blowing up innocent families with killer robots, because WAR ON TERROR!

I hate the fact that we fill our prisons with people who smoked pot, because WAR ON DRUGS! But the banksters who brought down our economy, and the Bush-Cheney criminals who made torture U.S. policy, all get free passes.

I hate the fact that our Hope and Change President has devoted himself to cutting Social Security and Medicare. Watch him get that job done in the lame duck session. Nixon to China, Obama to Social Security.

And speaking of security, do you think that making Bush-Cheney abuses like spying on all Americans without warrants is something Obama (or his defenders) should be proud of?
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mikey said...

We keep telling you, Thunder, that we only prefer Obama in the context of a zero sum two party choice in which the alternative is Romney/Ryan and EVERY SINGLE thing you care about would be orders of magnitude worse under a Republican administration and you conveniently don't EVER address this reality. So, yeah. You must hate Obama...

zombie rotten mcdonald said...

Well, it helps that the Empire doesn't even ALLOW polite company....

zombie rotten mcdonald said...

I hold on to my friends as tightly as I can, because I feel if someone is in my life, they are valuable to me and I need to hang on to them, because they add to my value.

Huh.

Another Kiwi said...

Von, I don't really know what to say. The distances between us all don't really add up to much because of blogging. And it's not like you signed a contract about what you would blog about so blog about anything. Your life is a pretty good thing to do, since you know it better than anyone and I have found it helpful when I have done it.
Disclaimer: Smut Clyde signed a contract about what he would blog about and I see no posts on Roman sandal making and it's influence upon the music of Ian Hunter.