Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Forget it

Ok, let's just chalk up that other post to my sleep deprived self.
An update:
Tuesday date guy (aka likely still married guy) cancelled our date.  I received a text stating that his boss needed him to finish something up.
Um, according to his profile, HE'S the boss.  Hmmmm
Many follow up texts from him - at one point I responded - 'Shouldn't you be working?'
That stopped the texts for the night.
I woke up to several more.  One of which said something about me being mad.  I responded how I was amazed that after a week or so of only texts and emails how he could know my mood.  I stated I was not mad, that things happen.  More texts from him.
I'm still convinced he's still married.  Have not rescheduled anything yet. 

Haven't heard from Friday date to set a plan.  I sent him an email this morning letting him know I'm excited, and mentioned a couple of bars that I think would be good to meet at.  I hope he responds, but the way my week is going, I have the feeling he'll blow me off.

I'm back to expect the worst and (kinda) hope for the best. 

Sadly - One glaring life lesson came out of last night. 

I was super bummed, beyond bummed, teary actually.  I reached out to a couple of people, and announced my cancelled plans on facebook. 
Turns out I no longer have a person in my life who would drop what they were doing because I needed them.  I miss that.  Being honest - for most of the time I was friends with Laura, I had that with her.  She was the one who would come running, often without being asked, to be there for me.  I knew I would miss that, even though she hasn't been that for me in many years.

So, of my bunches and bunches of friends, last night I had no one.  Ok, not true.  RM (previously referred to here as Eldest StepSis) offered to come over and bring beer.  Selfishly, she's not the one I wanted to cry to.  So, I had one person.  

So, here I sit.  Kinda hopeful for Friday's date, kinda sure he's going to cancel or blow me off.
What was I thinking?


zombie rotten mcdonald said...

Um, according to his profile, HE'S the boss. Hmmmm

I can relate. My boss is a TOTAL asshole.

....yeah, most times I refer to myself as a separate person as a boss. It makes it seem like there are more people.

Not defending him, you see. or saying your instincts are wrong. Just that sometimes the self-employed are kind of loony tunes.

ifthethunderdontgetya™³²®© said...

Expect the worst, hope for the best.

It's all we can do, Von.

Smut Clyde said...

Um, according to his profile, HE'S the boss. Hmmmm

The worst thing about working for yourself is the sexual harassment. It NEVER STOPS.

Big Bad Bald Bastard said...

Smut brings the funny. Hope things go well for you on Friday.

I just don't get the whole deception thing. I went out with a "separated, not divorced" woman a few years ago. I knew something was up when she kept asking me if she could trust me. WTF? About two weeks in, she finally tells me, "I'm still married, but my husband and I are separated." I told her, "If I'd known that, I don't think I would have gone out with you." "Yeah, I figured that, so I didn't tell you."

That went over well.