Ok, let's just chalk up that other post to my sleep deprived self.
Tuesday date guy (aka likely still married guy) cancelled our date. I received a text stating that his boss needed him to finish something up.
Um, according to his profile, HE'S the boss. Hmmmm
Many follow up texts from him - at one point I responded - 'Shouldn't you be working?'
That stopped the texts for the night.
I woke up to several more. One of which said something about me being mad. I responded how I was amazed that after a week or so of only texts and emails how he could know my mood. I stated I was not mad, that things happen. More texts from him.
I'm still convinced he's still married. Have not rescheduled anything yet.
Haven't heard from Friday date to set a plan. I sent him an email this morning letting him know I'm excited, and mentioned a couple of bars that I think would be good to meet at. I hope he responds, but the way my week is going, I have the feeling he'll blow me off.
I'm back to expect the worst and (kinda) hope for the best.
Sadly - One glaring life lesson came out of last night.
I was super bummed, beyond bummed, teary actually. I reached out to a couple of people, and announced my cancelled plans on facebook.
Turns out I no longer have a person in my life who would drop what they were doing because I needed them. I miss that. Being honest - for most of the time I was friends with Laura, I had that with her. She was the one who would come running, often without being asked, to be there for me. I knew I would miss that, even though she hasn't been that for me in many years.
So, of my bunches and bunches of friends, last night I had no one. Ok, not true. RM (previously referred to here as Eldest StepSis) offered to come over and bring beer. Selfishly, she's not the one I wanted to cry to. So, I had one person.
So, here I sit. Kinda hopeful for Friday's date, kinda sure he's going to cancel or blow me off.
What was I thinking?