Monday, May 12, 2008
Sorry, but I'm pissed
I'm not going to give the weekend in review today. I'm kinda pissed off about something that seems to be a recurring theme in my life of late. Friends - stop treating me like shit. If you're too busy to answer the phone, then don't answer the phone. If your life sucks, don't treat me like it's some how my fault. I'd like to think that you treat all of your friends equally, but you don't. You have different rules for different people, and I'm sick of it. A lot of people that don't know me very well think I'm a bitch. That's true. I can be. I'm outspoken, honest, and self-confident. A lot of people that don't know me tend to be a little be afraid of me. This is all ok with me. The problem lies with my friends, those that do know me. These people have the ability to hurt my feeling more than other people. Lately, it seems they do - time and time again. A recent example is someone that I've been trying to become better friends with lately. She's awesome, and I look up to her. The other day she went off on my for something that should not have been a big deal. Don't fucking yell at me, when the person who is truly wrong, who really screwed up, is standing right next to you. I've been mad for a few days about this incident. I'm conflicted, because I'm not sure what I'm going to do about this one. Up until the incident, I feel that we had been making good progress to actually becoming friends. Now, I don't know what I want to do about it. She's someone I see on a regular basis at one of my things, so avoiding her is not an option. I'm waiting for her to blog about what a bitch I was, but it hasn't happened yet. I'll have to see how this plays out. I'm going to push it out of my mind (or try to) until Friday, when I have to see her again. I think I'll let her take the lead on this. If she is still a bitch, then game over. I have enough friends, I don't need another one treating me badly. If she's nice to me, I'll just let it go. Like I said - she's cool, and someone I thought would make a good friend. I don't want to get more specific, as some of my friends read this blog, and I'm not in the game of hurting feelings. I know that I told Shannon I would never be in the practice of blogging about people without naming them. I am taking exception here to not hurt feelings, or have a fight/discussion on the internet. I'll just say this - If you are reading this, and you think 'Maybe she's talking about me, and I've been kinda a shit friend lately.' then you're right, I probably am. Just know, friends, that I have feelings. I have a life. My life, my topics of conversation, my problems should be as important as yours. Yes, I have strong opinions, but sometimes, I'm right. I don't always understand what you do, and why. Don't say things you don't mean. **FYI - I just wrote this to vent. I feel better now. I do NOT want to discuss these issues further. If you think you might have been a shitty friend to me recently, then just fix it, and let's move forward.